An apology to a dear friend, Andre

by David M.
(Singapore)

Dear Andre...I know you probably want nothing to do with me anymore. I admit it was my fault. After about 2 months of acting weird or so, I guess I can't blame you for deciding you finally had enough and decided to cut me out. From the way things were going, it was bound to end up like that anyway and it was probably for the best you did because now I have no reason to desperately cling on and act in such a weird manner; I'm forced to learn to be independent, which I really needed to regardless.


I finally got a clear head too. I just wish I realized it before you felt the need to do something so drastic and for me to lose such a good friend, but live and learn I guess.

It's like back when we were both free, we had such a good time together. Visiting the Pokemon Cafe together, swimming together and whatnot. I really appreciated your company because I would have been so bored during the holidays since nobody else was as willing to do stuff with me and have a good time.

Even before that, we could also talk about pretty much anything, like we had that close connection as well. All was good. But I guess that was exactly the problem. My world was more or less revolving around you. When you weren't free anymore, I wasn't sure how to cope, hence why I was acting weird. Like constantly asking you if I can accompany you. Or wanting to have a sleepover so badly. And freaking out when you don't reply my texts.

I suppose this is where having a wide social circle is and learning to be comfortable with yourself is important, so that one can maintain healthy relationships which I have been struggling to do so ever since JC when I got traumatized by some incident. I should have given you space.

I realized that I had a problem, so that's why I went to seek help from a counsellor. But by then you had already been exposed to much of my weirdness. What happened that Sunday was the final straw for you, and I can't blame you for it... I sincerely regret it happened.

I was merely playing Pokemon Go and I was at Paya Lebar because I was looking for Dratini and Charmander, and I ended up trespassing into your condominium residential area. I got carried away, and it was wrong of me. But I hope you understand I wasn't up to anything malicious like trying to housebreak or use the facilities as a non-resident.

I wasn't even trying to follow you initially. I just changed my mind about catching Charmander when I saw you because I figured I could always catch it another day but I won't always get to talk to you.

I realized I should have gotten the message when you told me to catch up another day. Instead of trying to continue a conversation and ended up with me following you when you were in a rush and already had plans with someone else. That was wrong of me... and I regret it happened. It's basically because I was too attached. I finally got a clear head now, but the damage has been done...

I hope we can re-establish a connection again in the future, if you're willing to let me back into your life once more. I really do miss our friendship. I understand I made mistakes.

Mistakes like constantly asking you if I can accompany you. Or wanting to have a sleepover so badly. And freaking out when you don't reply to my texts. And the final straw for you would be what happened that Sunday. I have already sorted myself out and gotten a clear head but I guess if you're not ready to have me back into your life and rekindle our friendship, I understand.

I made mistakes, and sometimes I have to pay a price. This is why I say I wish I realized it before you felt the need to do something so drastic and for me to lose such a good friend, unless you're willing to give me another chance.

In any case, take care Andre, and thanks for the good times and memories, regardless of your decision to this.

Your former (Unless you say otherwise...) good friend, David.

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