Apologies To My Friends
by Anonymous
(United Kingdom)
Dear Annesta F.
I'm so sorry that I didn't ever pay you back that £150. You leant it to me in kindness and good faith and when I couldn't afford to pay it you back immediately I was so ashamed.
I have wanted to send you the money every day since I got a job, but I have no idea where you are. I don't have your telephone number, address or access to your Facebook. I can't even find your email address or old BlogSpot! I have no contact with anyone that is still in touch with you. I'm at a loss.
I want to tell you that I'm sorry for wasting our friendship over money, but since I cannot, I will say it here and just... get it off my chest.
I know you won't forgive me but, I hope you're happy and I will say 100 times that I am eternally, eternally sorry.
I've turned my life around. I'm all grown up and I hope one day I will find you to return everything I owe.
I have no idea where in the world you live now, but I hope it is somewhere exotic and wonderful with that classy mad-ave job you always dreamed of!
xxxx
Dear Kerry T.
I am sorry for everything I did. You were my best friend and I really messed up. I should never have lied about not wanting to go on holiday with you. I felt that the time I came to stay with you whilst we were planning the break, your boyfriend didn't really like me and you were sick of me.
I was nervous about spending 10 days alone with you, but I had no reason to be because you were simply the best.
I told you that we had our money back... we actually didn't. I refunded you the entire thing out of my own money because I was afraid of making things worse...but then when I could hardly afford to get the money back to you, it all went so badly anyway.
I wish I'd been able to tell you these things, but I was a coward and now I've lost you forever.
The last 10 months have been so sad without you. You have said you can't forgive me or trust me again and so, I'm reserving this apology from you because I know it will never make a difference. I want to get it all off my chest... but most of all, I just want you to be happy because you're great and you deserve it.
I'm more sorry than you'll ever realise. More sorry with every day that passes.
Good luck to you!!
xxxxx
