It seems I have a knack of handling certain situations wrong or incredibly inappropriately and not putting your feelings first, leading to much heartache and strain on our otherwise amazing relationship. For this, I am deeply sorry.
I should never cause this pain to the most important person in my life. It is absolutely unacceptable.
I know I have broken promises and that it has become increasingly difficult for you to believe any promise I try to make to you, but try to believe that this will never be a difficulty again.
My hope for our relationship and life together is everlasting and stronger than ever.
Please understand and believe that this has nothing to do with you. You are a beautiful, sexy, talented, charming, honest, loving, and caring woman. Any man would be blessed to have the relationship I have had with you. I have been especially blessed and would give anything to keep this blessing in my life.
My actions have caused great pain for myself as well. This I deserve. I am looking into ways to handle this pain and the fact that I am the one who has this issue. I truly want to make us (and myself) better.
If I am too late with this, or my efforts to convince you that our relationship is worth moving forward are not enough, I have to face the bleak reality of a life without you. A life that will be dark, dismal, and meaningless. Maybe I deserve this as well for causing so much pain.
My heart has no light and nothing in my life has meaning without you. You are my everything, my lobster. I hope I can be yours again someday soon.