I just want to hold you in my arms and never let you go. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me, you are my life. I am so sorry, so embarrassed, so disappointed in myself, I feel sick inside.
Today I lost it completely, and I need to have a good look at myself. I have no excuse, I need to wake up and act like the man that I am.
I love you, and I know that you really need my support at the moment, instead I've let you down and and hurt you badly. Babe I have been feeling stressed out lately with work and money and everything that's been happening and I just want to see you happy.
I understand you don't want to marry me now, I don't blame you one bit. I don't know if I can change your mind, I can only prove to you that I'll make a great husband by showing it, not talking about it, actions speak louder than words.
Today is the first day of the rest of my life, I really needed a wake up call and I got one. I'm writing this letter to you to apologise and I'm writing this from the bottom of my heart. I'm sorry and I still want to be with you forever, but I need to prove to you that I'm worthy, and worthy I know I am.
I'm sorry babe that I hurt you, you have shown me nothing but love and patience. I love you more than you know, but it's up to me to prove it. As I said, actions speak louder than words, so let my actions prove my love for you.