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A Love That I Ruined ..

by JR

To 'N' (my love) ... I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am for what happened between us. I miss you and I miss what we had so much and it hurts me to know that I hurt you.


My mind constantly thinks about how much I miss you. How much I want you to come back, how every moment without you hurts more and how I just want everything to be the same again.

The time we spent together were the happiest times in my life. I was myself and I enjoyed your company a lot. It's something I'll never forget and I'll always cherish all those moments. I just wish it could've lasted forever.

I'm sorry for hurting you again, every time you decided to forgive me and give me another chance. I'm sorry for how I would always somehow mess up so badly and ruin everything for us. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me and I hope that one day you'll be able to forgive me for everything that I have ever done to hurt you in any way.

I love you a lot. There are so many things that I miss about you, things that I can't let go of and will always admire about you. I really do love you with all my heart, no matter what I say or how I act. I will always love you.

The thought of losing you has always scared me and I guess that's why I got jealous so easily or why I was always so insecure about things. I wanted you to be happy, I always tried to make you happy. I did so much for
you and my feelings for you were so crazy. But even after everything I have ever done for you, after everything I felt and still do feel, I lost you.

But I couldn't force a love that wasn't there even though I did try to sometimes. I do understand that the reason we aren't together anymore is my fault and I really do hate what I've done. I regret not listening to you, I really wish I didn't do all those things you asked me not to.

Sometimes I feel stupid for thinking that you'd really come back to me since you were the one that broke it off between us two.

How could I think that if you wanted me, you would have come back. But it's me who should have been chasing you, I should have been trying to prove to you that you were all that mattered to me. I should have said everything I needed to but I didn't know how to say it.

I'm not good with my words and you knew that. I should have tried harder to convince you that our love was important. If only I could have one last chance to be with you, it would be different.

It has been a difficult time for me, sometimes I'm okay and other times I remember how we ended and how much it hurt me.

I always look back at our photos because I enjoy the memories we have. I'll always remember every moment I spent with you because I loved being with you. You're my everything and I hope that one day I'll be yours again.

I love you with all my heart..

Yours truly..

– Jessica

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We are blind until it's too late
by: Anonymous

We do things and do not realize how we hurt the one we love. It is later after the breakup that we look at what has gone on and what we have done through their eyes and see all the mistakes we have made. Getting them to trust us again is near impossible. Dedicated to Lena . . . . .

I wish they would come back
by: Anonymous

I have never related more...

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