I realize you hate me now and you don't want to have anything to do with me or our friendship anymore. I accept that.
But before I go away for good, there are some things I really need to say. I'm not gonna go away bitter or mad, I'm just gonna let it go and cherish the friendship that we had.
... for not giving you the space you wanted ... for not letting go when I should have ... for getting mad about little things that don't matter anymore ... for not taking your word for things ... for listening to what other people have said ... for being an ass to you and a jerk at times ... for jumping to conclusions before finding out the truth ... for being too pushy and invading your personal space ... for all the stupid mistakes I made that pushed you away ... for ending up complicating things ... for being difficult to be around ... for making you feel bad ... for not being able to be your friend ... for doing all the things that lost your trust in me
You had such a bad year and all the things you have had to go through and everything else I may have left out.
I will never forget you. I really needed someone like you around during the time that I met you, which was almost exactly a year ago. It's crazy to think that. I was going through a lot of emotional trauma during that period of time and being around a friend like you made me forget about all the bad stuff.
I had never met anyone like you before, I had never really met a friend who was a sweet as you were, a girl who was so unique and fun to be around and as beautiful as you were... that is why I fell so hard and so quickly, but I really regret not getting to know you real well, moving too fast, and letting our friendship bloom.
It doesn't really make a lot of sense when I think back on everything. I guess I just didn't know how to handle things and I couldn't let go so easily.
It was bad timing for both of us, and after you went away I didn't know how to deal with everything and I took out a lot of negative emotion on you, which was wrong. It was never your fault for feeling the way you did. All I ended up doing in the end was just complicating everything and losing a very dear friend.
I'm so very sorry.
I'm not saying I am completely at fault, but I'm admitting my wrong doing. It may not mean anything to you now, but it means a lot to me for you to know this.
I know I can't do anything more to change your mind, and I don't expect you to, but at least you really know how I feel, and I feel better for letting it out.
I wish nothing but the best for you, I hope you find someone who gets you and treats you with the respect you deserve. I really hope you find out what it is you really want, and know that eventually you will.
I wish things didn't have to be this way, I will miss you and your friendship, like I already do. I hope someday I'll find a girl with your qualities who will become more than a friend and share my life with me. I haven't found anyone like that just yet. Goodbye.