From the Bottom of My Heart, I'm Sorry Cecilia

by BH
(VA)

Cecilia... I know my mistakes, and I own them. I doubt you'll ever find this, but at least my conscience will be partially relieved for having written this. I was belittling and crass, and verbally vented all my frustrations unto you through what I assume was emotional battery for you.

It's been 6 years and my feelings for you have not changed.

I know we and I will never have what we once had, and I accept that it's all my fault. I will always cherish my time with you above all.

I loved you with all my heart, and I'm sure you knew that.

I'd do anything to fix my mistakes and reclaim the time and life I ruined. I've grown since then, and though I am happy for it, it has been the most painful learning experience I'll ever have, from which I will never truly recover.

No mistake in my life will ever haunt me more.

I ruined the greatest thing I could ever have, and I wish more than anything that I could let you know that I am sorry.

From the bottom of my heart, I am sorry Cecilia. I hope you truly find happiness and live the best life you can. You're meant for so much more. B.