I took advantage of your kindness
I'm sorry for having shared inappropriate personal things with you about the problems in my marriage. It was wrong and unfair of me to keep doing so considering your relationship to me, my husband, and my son.
I kept promising to stop but then repeated my mistake on impulse. I should have been more in control of my feelings and actions. Sending you so many emails with so much inappropriate information was crazy. I think I WAS crazy.
I wanted support and attention - I kept crying out for help to the wrong person, and deep down I knew it. This is not an adequate excuse, but pregnancy hormones most likely played a hand in my actions.
This is selfish, I know, but I pray that you will be able to forgive me in time, to not be annoyed with me, and to respect and like me as a friend.
I feel I ruined our friendship. This is one of those few times in my life when my actions have ended in serious consequences and perhaps permanent loss. They are painful learning experiences.
Knowing what you do now about my marriage, I hope that for your sake you can move forward without letting this knowledge affect your interactions with my husband and with me.