Sorry for My Outburst and Words
by Lucinda Skaggs
(North Port, FL USA)
I am sorry for the way I acted yesterday, and the way things happened. I unfortunately can't erase the unkind words and the way I said them. I pray you forgive me and hope we can get past the soreness I have caused. I wasn't trying to blame you for my feelings or the way I am and the way I think.
I know I have been very hard to get along with lately and am frustrated with myself and feel you don't feel the way you used to about me.
Somewhere along the way I have lost your respect.
We sometimes take each other for granted and unfortunately give each other the brunt of our bad days, thoughts and insecurities.
I have felt I never have been good enough for you and sometimes don't understand what you saw in me.
I never have thought of myself as a great person, I have many self-doubts and flaws I need to come to grips with personally. I know I am my own worst enemy!
I often think of the many ways in which I've failed you, not only as a wife but also as a person.
As I look back over our twenty-eight years married, I wonder when the exact moment was that I lost you. When the exact time was that I lost the ability to give you what you need.
You have every right to receive the: love, affection, passion, companionship you deserve.
It takes us both to make things work in the relationship. This is supposed to be a marriage and we should be trying to help guide and give uplifting support to one another.
We should have each other's back and work as a team! We need to be more understanding, sensitive, considerate and devoted to one another.
I am not sure how to resolve our problems except to try to sit and talk sensibly when either one us starts to feel disrespected and unbalanced as a couple.
I want to be the woman you love and need your understanding, acceptance and respect.
I promise to try to work through my emotional issues and work hard to be better for you. I promise to lovingly treat you with respect & equality. And I promise to try to take things with a grain of salt - and not to blow things out of proportion.
You are the most hardworking, intelligent and talented man I know. I know everything you do is for US!
I love you with my heart and soul and I want us both to be happy and feel fulfilled.
I will always be grateful and will always love you for the man you are.
I hope and pray you can forgive me, and we can move past my outburst and we can grow stronger together as a couple!
ALL MY LOVE!