I don't often write letters like this but something inside me felt like it was the right thing to do. I hope this letter is not too late.
I wanted more time to pass before I started to write this, thinking it was probably a better idea to have a clearer head.
First off, I want to apologize for any aggravation I've caused you. When people are in love they do dumb and out of control things. I think that's their weird way of showing it, like that old saying goes.
The things I said about you being selfish and immature was my own idiotic way of showing that love, and I think I was trying to get you to dislike me to make it easier for me.
But that was very selfish of me and in the end I ended up giving myself more pain.
You weren't the selfish one, it was me. I was the one who was selfish because I didn't give you the space you needed. I just wasn't thinking clearly.
I also want to say thank you for being nice at work to me even after all the mess I caused. That's what I like about you, you're so giving and caring to everyone no matter what. I also want to explain the thing with ***** and why I told him.
This whole mess we got into started to affect my work, and he was starting to notice why I was so gloomy everyday at work. So I fessed up and told him the truth.
I was terrified and thought I was going to get suspended or something but he was very understanding and I told him not to say anything to you. So I just want you to know I would never try and get you fired, I'm not that kind of person.
I'm guessing you thought that because I didn't respond to the last text message you sent me. I just didn't respond because I thought I was bothering you enough as it was.
You wanted space, that's all you asked for and I didn't give it to you. I apologize for that.
I know this is not a good excuse but my past relationships ended so badly with a majority of them cheating on me. Again, that's no excuse and not your fault or problem. So again, I'm sorry.
You're the sweetest girl I've ever met and you didn't deserve any of this. You deserved much better than that from me, someone that cares about you, or anyone else.
This whole thing wasn't fair to you at all.
I'm not used to a good person like you treating me with that amount of respect. You made me feel like a man. I'm just so used to being lied to by girls and you're the first one that was completely honest with me.
I really do care for you because of those things, the little things are what counts for me, big things too but you know what I mean.
I'm cool with being friends if that's alright with you because I still care and will always hold a place in my heart for you. Like I said before if your ever in a bind, need help, or even need someone to talk to don't hesitate to call me!
I'm here for you whenever, but you know the future is unpredictable so who knows maybe someday things will happen. I hope everything else in your life is going good and you are being treated well.
I've been studying my A+ certification exam for a while now. The test is very hard! A lot of other things have been going on in my life at the same time so if you saw me looking angry, or mad I just want you to know it's nothing you did.
I hope you understood everything in this letter. I just wanted to express my sincerity to you and apologize for acting on my emotions rather than letting time heal first then thinking things through clearly.
PS. I actually had this letter hand written. I really thought it would be more appropriate if I left it that way but my hand writing is so awful I figured you would want to be able to read it.