Soul Level Apology
Hey Beautiful Soul... I am truly sorry for not knowing or understanding your intentions at a soul level. I was just viewing you on a superficial level, where I hated you for all the criticizing and demeaning words used, also for your apparent indifference to all family matters.
However after some incidents in my life, I have now come to understand your role in my life.
I now know the mystery behind our relationship. It is that at a soul level you are my best mate, my soul partner who loves me so much that you are going through hell yourself. Your role is to teach me soul lessons, something that I never understood, but now I am giving that possibility good and serious thought since that is the only possible explanation. There can't be any other explanation for you to behave like this.
It is either this or past life karma actions, whereby I have tormented your soul so much that you are here to give it back to me.
Either way you are helping me grow and free myself from my karma action, so I should be thankful to you.
I have also come to realise, many times, that unless I learn the right lessons and move forward, you cannot be released. Also, with my my constant state of hyper-ness I have taken many wrong roads and made many wrong decision and with that I have been extremely angry and hurtful towards you.
You have taken everything in your stride and for this never chided me.
I don't know how to apologise to you for the pain that I have caused to you in this life and likely many lives before this. Please forgive me, please forgive me. I am truly sorry for this and all that has happened before this, that has caused you pain and made you act like this.
I release you to move forward with your life's plan with confidence, and to forgive me and let me go. Please I am done with you, we are done, I no longer want to be tied up with you in this endless karmic cycle.
Please forgive me, I am sorry. Thank you, I love you.