My need for your forgiveness

Dear Simon...I need to tell you how very sorry I am for hurting you and betraying your trust so deeply thirty years ago, and I ask for your forgiveness.

I am very sorry that I was aggressive, bullying, contemptuous and dismissive of you, your feelings and your needs during our 4-year relationship. I am very sorry I verbally abused you and that I belittled your qualities instead of valuing them.

For the duration of our relationship, I was unfaithful to you with another man. I am very sorry that I deceived you and betrayed your trust when you wanted to build a relationship with me, and that I justified this by telling myself it was true love so you didn't matter.

When you found out, I did not apologise and I dismissed the immense pain you were in.

I left you, to be with him, taking our baby son with me. I am very sorry that I took no responsibility for hurting you and that I blamed you because I couldn't face the guilt of betraying your trust and witnessing the anguish you were in.

Simon, from the bottom of my heart, I ask you for your forgiveness.

I promise that I will seek to make amends to you from now on whichever way I can.