I don't even want to think about it. It was the fall of 1967. Charlie and I went over to Ohio State because we were dings (opposite of BMOCs) at Denison. Somebody knew somebody and Charlie called a blind date and set me up with her friend. We said we'd meet in the lobby of their high rise dorm. We were off to the side and when his date came out of the elevator, he didn't like her looks so we split.
She was all dressed up to go out. I can still see her standing there, looking for us. Argh! Major guilt still. If I were an alcoholic on the twelve-step program, I'd have to find her to apologize. Actually, that wouldn't be a bad idea. It'd certainly be cathartic.
Maybe I should start a website of apologies. It has probably been done. I'll check that out (which I did and so here I am).
Anyway, I'm really sorry. ladies. I wish I could have a do-over and take you out for a beer and a sandwich, tell you how nice you look, and thank you for the privilege of meeting you. I'm sure it was my loss.....Ken
Posted by "Doesn't Matter"
To Turbo... This is sickening that I am doing this but I can't deal with carrying this guilt around...not another day, not another month, and not into the new year. I am sorry for what I did to you, I am sorry for making you believe something that wasn't true and I am sorry for everything I have said and did to you this far...we could have been great together but I ruined that and since I will never see you again (since I am such a punk that I won't go do this face to face) I can only hope that one day you will see this and know it's me and know that I am sorry. I am SO sorry.
Posted by Anonymous
Jay, I am so sorry. I had no intention of hurting you. But that's all I seem to be good at. I'm constantly saying I'm sorry and every time I mean it. I know I promised I'd never do this to you again. And for that I'm sorry too.
Honestly I'm surprised you're still my friend. That just shows how great you are. I'm an idiot for letting this fade away. And again I have something to regret. I hate knowing that I continue to hurt you. I often think that you should let me go, but that would only leave me in worse shape than you found me. I've realized what I've caused you and finally started listening. And things have gotten better. I trust you more than anyone. You tell me I don't owe you anything but really I feel I owe you my life. You have had the biggest impact on my life.
You may not believe me when I say I have changed. I could never let you go, but I will at your discretion. I am truly sorry. Please understand that.
Posted by Lori
I love your son. I love him more than you can imagine. This war that we have going on has lasted long enough. I hate it. My husband hates it. And I'm sure you hate it as well. I'm sorry for the things that I've said to you over the years. I don't even know how this feud got its start. All I know is I want to make up for lost times and finally be welcomed into your family. I can only hope you accept my apology and put the past behind us.
Posted by Irene
I'm sorry for hurting you in the way that I did. I don't know why I did it. I never should have, it was our time and I ruined it. I really felt like I didn't deserve you and I was confused and jealous. I'm deeply and truly sorry for everything. When I did apologize I didn't know how to say it and it sounded like I didn't mean it. I'm deeply and truly sorry for hurting you, I never wanted to do that. I made a mistake and it's something I have to live with.
We had a lot of good times together and I should have told you a long time ago that I loved you then, but I was afraid that you would have ran away. I was so afraid to not have you in my life that I never told you how I really felt about you. I know that probably doesn't make sense, but I was so afraid of losing you as a friend. Then to lose you because of what I did. Then to actually lose you before I could sincerely apologize. I feel horrible about it and I can't even talk to you and ask for forgiveness.
I'm sorry that I never got to tell you that before you left me forever. I do love you and I'm so sorry. I wish I could go back and fix it, but I can't. I only hope that you have forgiven me and that someday we will be together again forever. I love you and I miss you SMH more than you will ever know. I'm very sorry Gorgeous
Posted by Rebecca
I remember the first time I saw you. You were across the room from me, talking to some of the guys from church. I thought you were incredibly handsome even then.
On Friday night Darren came up to my house. He told me he had missed seeing me around, and then he kissed me. I didn't really have time to react before he walked away.
I'm sorry. You have no idea how bad I feel about this. I messed up hugely. I promise you it will never happen again.
I know I've hurt you, and for that I'm more sorry than I will ever be able to express. If I could turn back time, I would have by now. I would have fixed this, stopped it before it happened. As it is, all I can do is apologise sincerely, from the bottom of my heart.
I love you more than I love life. I know I've said before that I will always love you. I meant it then, and I mean it now. Even if you decide that this was too big to forgive, I will still always love you.
I know you no longer have reason to trust me. Please let me know what is going to happen next, via whatever means you think is best. Rebecca
Posted by Patootie
I know that there have been so many times I've hurt you because of my selfish actions and thoughtlessness. There is no reason that I should be able to treat you this way. For some reason when things are going right I feel the need to self destruct and that maybe on some level I don't deserve to be in a relationship with someone that actually loves me. I'm not sure why I feel this way, but regardless deep down I do.
I wish that I could be okay and not feel the need to ruin things. I've had to work so hard for all of the things I do have that maybe because you are right there I don't feel that I've worked hard enough to deserve you.
If there is any part of you that still loves me, maybe you could see that I am human, and I have a lot of issues, but there is a lot of love for you here-it just depends if you still want that from me. I wish I could take back all of my hurtful actions and we could start all over. But this is real life and that wish is impossible.
From the bottom of my heart and from all that I am, I love you and am truly, truly sorry for hurting you with my thoughtless, selfish actions.
Posted by Ruth Buxton
To my beloved son, please forgive me for hurting you. I love you more than words alone can say... always and forever mum xxxxxxxx
Posted by Kiefer Dawn
Dear Allain...I'm so sorry about what I did. You might think I didn't value our friendship but it's really very important to me because you were the first person in Huasiong that made me feel welcome.
Without you, I wouldn't be energetic as I am now. I'm probably the most pathetic friend you ever had. I'm very angry with myself for what I did. So please, forgive me. Dui bu qi,Cheng Li An.
Your Best Friend, Kiefer A.K.A Kifer
Posted by Anonymous
Jay, I'm so sorry. I did not intend to hurt you. I questioned you and that was my mistake. I value our friendship more than I show. You've always been there for me. I always say I have no regrets but I truly regret hurting you. I promise to never do this to you again.
You are easily the best person that has come into my life. I've had a lot to deal with but that still doesn't make things right. I've been a fool and I know that whatever I do, even if you forgive me it still doesn't take away the fact that I once hurt you. I know my actions upset you, and I feel that pain too. You're always looking out for me. You have shown me what I chose to ignore, you help me understand. You are part of the few that know who I am and what I've been through, and you see me for me not who I try to be.
I haven't been a good friend and that this is only one sided. I had a feeling I was hurting you but I didn't want to believe it, but now that you've said it I can hardly stand myself. You deserve so much more, so much better than I'm giving and I'm sorry for that too. I hope you accept my apologies but I understand if you don't. Please be patient with me.
Posted by Jes
Baby, I'm sorry for being so insensitive. I do get really crazy and angry with my depression and I regret taking it out on you ever so much. I just want us to be happy, and I get impatient. I know I cant justify what I said to you, but I really didn't see it as depreciating your love for me. I just let my emotions get the better of me and I say stupid things.
If I ever lost you, I would be lost myself. I love you so much that it goes without saying, and sometimes I forget that I still have to say it because it's not like you can read my thoughts. If you could, I know you would never feel unappreciated.
I am sorry I made you feel unloved. I was just picking a fight. Our love feels so permanent that maybe I just take it for granted sometimes. But I will never do that again. I will spend the rest of my life loving you extra to prove it to you.
Posted by Vinay
Dear Monika.... The past month almost two months you have been there for me. And I loved every bit of it, and I'm glad you're my friend. And I'm truly sorry for taking all my bottled up anger and letting it out on you. I hope some way you can find it in your heart to forgive me, I am trying really hard. It was really wrong of me, I'm sorry
Posted by Kaylee
Hunny I'm sorry. I didn't want to make you upset, but I couldn't just tolerate the pain... Hunny bunny I'm still afraid. I'm afraid that you didn't mean it, that you'd rather I didn't lean on you when I'm in pain. I'm afraid that you don't love me, that you're angry at me. So I'm sorry. Please forgive me Hun, please tell me you still love me.
I will always love you! I'm just sorry for all the things I've done wrong in this relationship. I'm new to this, but I want everything to work out! I've made plenty of mistakes and I'm sorry. Sorry boo boo boy... :) You're so amazing and of course you don't deserve the mistakes I've made! You deserve the best and I promise to try to give you that for the rest of your life.
Posted by Craig W.
I am writing to apologise to Alice M. We were together for 5 years and have now been apart for about the same. I had found probably the perfect girl for me and threw it all away because of my own pathetic ego. I loved attention from other women and although never tempted, near the end of our relationship I gave in.
You never deserved that Alice and my apology will never be enough, despite now being happily married. To this day I still think about you and wonder what you are doing. whatever that is, I hope more than anything you are happy, as you deserve to be.
I never stopped loving you throughout our relationship and you were the kindest, sweetest person I've ever known.
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